Sunday, January 25, 2015

Les Romans à Clef

Over the winter break I read two excellent books. Christmas presents from Hubby. Not eBooks or iBooks or any-other-vowelBooks. One paperback and the other hardback, solid, lovely real books with the scent of paper and ink.

First I read We Are All Completely Beside Ourselves by Karen Joy Fowler. She starts in the middle. The only way to tell this story.

So there she is, the narrator, meandering through college in 1996. On the first page she drops the bombshell that her brother left her life ten years earlier, and her sister seventeen. The once middle child now a de facto only child. We are with her in the lonely center of a mystery from the start. With just that hint of the beginning and the question of how it will end.

Fowler captures the nuances of family dynamics and human relationships. "My parents persisted in pretending we were a close-knit family, a family who enjoyed a good heart-to-heart, a family who turned to each other in times of trial. In light of my two missing siblings, this was an astonishing triumph of wishful thinking; I could almost admire it. At the same time, I am very clear in my own mind. We were never that family." And like that, we're off.

Beside Ourselves is a book to read on vacation. Rosemary lands in jail within the first couple of pages. From that point on, the drama, twists, surprises and mystery pull the reader in. I sat on the sofa, knees tucked under a blanket, and lost myself in the story. There is humor, great kindness in the writing, and tragedy. Tears snuck up on me before the end. The story looks with raw honesty at the complex relationships between humans and animals. No preaching. No answers really. But it raises some painful questions.

We Are All Completely Besides Ourselves stayed with me for days.

I let it soak in. And then, after a decent time lapse (so as not to be disrespectful), I picked up Crooked Letter, Crooked Letter by Tom Franklin.

By comparison, it started out slow. The reviews on the back cover said "the kind of novel that you just can't stop reading... just one more page, you tell yourself, just one more page..." Yet compared with Fowler's opening madcap ride to jail, Franklin's story began as imperceptibly as a sunrise.

Oh, he mentions the missing Rutherford girl, and a monster - in the first sentence. But then leans back into a slow Mississippi drawl about nature, the landscape and the weather. He paints with a fine-tipped brush. "At the edge of the porch several ferns hung from the eave, his mother's wind chime lodged in one like a flung puppet. He set his coffee on the rail and went to disentangle the chime's slender pipes from the leaves." Chicken pens with "speckled droppings and wet feathers", "storm clouds like a billowing mountain" to the north, "tapping the razor on the edge of the sink, whiskers peppered around the drain more gray than black" and we, the reader, slowly, ever so slowly, filling with a sense of quiet empathy and dread.

Crooked Letter cast its deep magic. It built up slow but full of power. Eventually it overtook my waking thoughts. Two boys, one black, one white. Tragedies unrecognized from a child's eyes. Just the way it is, something to make into a playground of some kind. Kids will find a way to learn about the world. The two boys played together in the fields and wood, and did not acknowledge each other at school, the place where their race mattered.

Then a girl disappeared. The last known person to see her was 17 year old Larry, the awkward white boy. The odd kid, the guy who was always a little strange. Decades passed. Decades without a body or any solid evidence. Decades of solitude for Larry, ostracized by the small community. Year after year of chicken tending and clouds rolling in, daily rituals and long silence. The black boy did a stint in the Marines and eventually returned to the community to serve as deputy Sheriff. To serve as deputy and to solve the winding, twisting, mesmerizing mystery. Crooked Letter, Crooked Letter. Indeed.

Thursday, January 1, 2015

18 Degrees and Clear

Drove the highway to Mount Hood on Monday with Son. Cold, clear and frozen.

December 29th was one day before his 18th birthday.  He kept all limbs intact.  (Prayer of thanks.) Watching a carefree pack of teen-aged boys enjoy the slopes was a joy.  Ruddy cheeks, the clank of ski boots, sweaty hair under the ski caps, and stories of double black diamond and wipe outs.  Cool.




Saturday, December 27, 2014

Monday, October 27, 2014

Tut, Tut.... Looks Like Rain

The cashier at New Season's said, "You have your blustery day coat on." 

"Tut, tut - looks like rain...." I responded.

Summer's slow tranquility has given way to lively autumn.   

I took Luna out to run errands with me.  She is learning how to wait in the car.  I carefully craft opportunities for her - leaving her for 5 minutes at Bales one week, then 10 at Trader Joe's the next.

Today we set out on our circuit.

Broken tree limbs and fallen leaves littered the streets.   As the car cut a path on the asphalt, the wind whipped the leaves into a riot of color and sound.

Luna loves a car ride.  She sits and watches wistfully out the window.  Nothing escapes her observation.  An airplane, a motorcycle, a dog and his people walking, a lone bird.

Today we stopped at the Recreation Center for a quick walk.  If I walk as fast as I can, we could almost say she is not really pulling on the leash any more. 

My perspective:  the dog cannot go slow!  Her perspective:  who is this human ball and chain in tennis shoes and yoga pants who is weighing me down like an anchor? 

The Rec Center circuit on a windy fall day

We sped around the perimeter, past fall soccer games, booming tennis tents thudding in the wind, the skate park with its slouching daredevils, and a curtain of fiery autumn leaves under marble skies.  Autumn is a drama-fest. 

The Oregonian shared a story of downed trees and branches, upturned tents and other debris left by fall's wild rumpus here:  http://www.oregonlive.com/pacific-northwest-news/index.ssf/2014/10/high_wind_advisory_lifted_but.html#incart_river

Beaverton Farmers' Market tent overturned


Thursday, October 16, 2014

October Morning Walk

 
 
Morning walk at Forest Heights Park.  Luna found a friend.  The year-old Wrigley could not be let off her leash or she would dive into the fountain.  So they rolled in the wet grass and fallen leaves, tussling and gnawing on each other's necks, and braiding their leads into a twist.  Tomorrow Luna will celebrate her one year birthday.
 
 
 


Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Dimwitted Moronic Vapidity


I napped both weekend days.  The full impact of what we had seen, felt, and lived finally hit.

But I was proud of myself.  Proud of us, really.  We had this scary big accident.  And we handled it with wits and grace. We were organized, thoughtful, and calm.  We had our act together.  Go Peace Love Bossy!

The police officer had emphasized that we had 72 hours in which to report the accident to the DMV. "If they receive my report, and they have not heard from you within the 72 hour window, you will be in trouble." 

I left work early on Monday to trudge off to the DMV.

Who looks forward to that?

But I would be okay.  I had my documents in place.  I had the police report in hand.  No big deal.  Right?

I found out what is worse than a car accident: reporting that accident to the DMV.  The dummy vee.

I'm not sure what exactly did it.  The incomprehensible forms?  The byzantine system of waiting in different lines to make it seem like a person is not really waiting as long as he is?  The callous and dismissive "service"?  The lackadaisical approach to attending to customers?  The hemming and hawing over a form that has been filled out correctly?  I'm not sure what did it, but when I left that place my heart was thumping with anger.  Doofus, moron, vee.... Humph!

Friday Night Lights

It was pretty typical for a Friday night in our world. 

Son needed a ride to a restaurant where he was meeting buddies for dinner.  I needed to get to the bakery before they closed at 7.  I suggested Hubby and Luna come along.  We could stop at the bakery enroute to the dog park.

We dropped Son off at Roxy's Island Grill.  Check.

Made it to Great Harvest by 6:52.  Two loaves of brown rice flour bread.  Check.

We turned out of the parking lot and onto the road.  The dog park was still at least 10 minutes away.  As we pulled up to a red light I noticed the time: 7:00.  It's getting dark earlier and earlier!  Luna won't have much time to run and play in daylight...

3 minutes later it happened.  As we sat waiting for a green arrow to turn left, two cars on the cross street collided.  Head on.  Square in front of us.

The impact snapped my attention to laser focus.   I saw the vehicles spin as clearly as if the whole scene were in slow motion.  I even saw the looks of fear on their faces, like a spotlight was shining on every detail of the moment.  20-something guy driving a black Toyota with his buddy in the front seat, their eyes wide with shock as the airbags billowed.  40-something blond alone in the Camaro, her face a mask of fear and surprise. 

I stiffened.  My foot pushed at the brake in our motionless car.  "They're going to hit us!  They're going to hit us!" 

Boom!  They hit us.

The car directly behind us at the light was a Portland Police Cruiser.  If the impact happened at 7:03, he was out of his car and in command at 7:03.5.  The red strobe light sliced the darkness, the noise and color awash in adrenaline.

The Toyota driver shot out of his car.  He was jumping around.  Looked like he wanted to punch someone.

The Camaro was a mangled twist of black metal.  Steam and the dust from the airbags rose into the twilight air.

I tried to put the car into Park, but it would not budge.  I could not move the gear shift out of Drive.  I could not get the key out of the ignition.  I rotated the key and killed the engine.  We were okay.  I knew we were okay.  Our airbags did not even deploy.  It was a major hit, but we were in the Acura.  That car is a tank.

Luna was frantic.  Hubby took her across the street and ran her down the sidewalk to spend some of her pent up energy.

I spoke to a witness who had stopped to ask if we were okay.

At least three more police cars arrived, along with an ambulance and a full fire engine.  The lights and noise filled the chaotic scene with added blare and drama.  Two police dogs barked from inside one of the cars.  Officers stopped traffic, checked for injuries, took our statements and investigated the crash scene.

We never made it to the dog park on Friday night.  Instead, we got a special ride from a flatbed tow truck driver all the way back to our home.  Luna rode locked up in the banged up Acura loaded onto the bed.

We got our excitement.  A lot more than we wanted.

What am I thankful for?

  • No one was gravely injured.  Hubby, Luna and I are fine.
  • We were driving our big car, and not our tiny Mini Cooper.
  • Son was not with us.
  • Son was not driving!
  • We were not at fault.
  • A police officer was on scene before the crash even happened.
  • We were close to home.  Not 300 miles away or 500 miles away.  And we were not headed to any important destination.  
Yep.  If you must have an accident, that's the way to do it.


Are you okay?


The car on the left wins.